| | I've never really bothered with blogs. Chronicling thoughts into story-like entries on a web-page seems a little long and arduous to me. By the time i've finished writing down one thought, i've had about 20 more that i want to put down on paper...only half of them will be forgotten by the time i start the next paragraph.
However, it's good to be able to speak your mind. If not to an audience, then at least to be able to see the words yourself. To know that what your think and feel is actually real. More importantly, to remember the things that matter. I'll be posting a bit more frequently from now. The topics will be varied and random, but there will be posts.
Life has changed a lot since my last visit to Xanga. I've learned lessons in life and love, both good and bad. I've made new friends, and ended up losing a few old ones as well. I had new ambitions, new dreams and new hopes but unfortunately, most (if not all) of my time is currently spent either at college or work. Free time is something i do not have the luxury of, and it saddens me.
When did life become so complicated? What happened to the carefree days of playing ball out in the street with friends or watching TV and eating ice cream? It seems like an eternity since i was 16 and happy.
I never used to understand people that had 5 and 10 year life plans. Back when i lived each day as i wanted to, planning ahead made no sense. It was all about the fun. Now i've got to worry about too many things. Planning is my only option. Study till july, then uni for 3 years, then 4 years in the Marine Corps, then work till i retire, then die like everyone else. Out of this plan, the ONLY thing i'm looking forward to is my 4 years in the USMC.
My life is set for the next few months. A monotonous routine of study and work. I keep telling myself that in the end, it'll all be worth it. That a degree will benefit my career and guarantee a decent retirement. But i don't believe the words. I force myself to listen to them, but i don't truly feel that my time will be well spent in education.
I'm conflicted at present. I know what i want, but i also know what is required for long-term success. Unfortunately the downside is that i've never been one for patience....
...and to that end, i'll be applying for a US green card in the near future. I know i can pass the PFT reqs for Marine Infantry and i have no problem signing away 4 years of my life to them, as long as i get in at least 1-2 combat tours.
Life's too short. I don't want to spend the next 3 years in uni studying my ass off, only to get blown up by an IED once i'm on active duty. If uni doesn't measure up to be the experience i'm hoping for, then i'll be heading out to San Diego for 12 weeks of a real education.
Oh, and i'm now on facebook. Look for Nathan Jonas Anderson. I should be the only result that appears. |
| | Posted 1/31/2008 2:14 PM - 19 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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